like all your friends go out and do things and have fun and do stupid things with their best friends and instead of doing all that you’re just sort of this mildly entertaining thing that people take an interest in once in a while but they wouldn’t really care if it was gone
like you just sort of exist but you don’t really mean anything
i have re-assessed my current situation and have made a decision: i will not kill myself (a quitters solution which i am NOT). no, i will become the baddest bitch out and act like the family delinquent and seem on the verge of dropping out whilst giving my parents the worst time of their lives BUT come report/interview/exam time, the feedback from teachers of me will be the opposite. amazing, brilliant, polite, quiet, smart, genius, studious pupil. just to mindfuck my parents and prove them wrong.